April 18, 2012 by Dropped Ink
There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts; it is a sword that kills.
Who does Buddha think he is spewing his wisdom? How could he possibly know about my doubt, much less, your doubt? How could he understand that secret voice in my head that wont turn off and screams at night when there is no family, job, or friends to preoccupy it or drown it out. Doubt, is probably the single reason why the world is not flooded with actors who make 20 million a movie and Adele or Springstein caliber musicians. Imagine if none if us doubted ourselves and actively, fiercely pursued our dreams. What if we buried doubt six feet deep in our songs, poetry, movies, and art; told doubt it doesn’t live here anymore. Took doubt by the throat and squeezed until it was so silent that only our creative voice spoke all the time. Until it resonated so loudly and strong we could do nothing but create and initiate our dreams and ideas. As wishful and valiant all this talk is we undoubtedly need doubt.
While it causes many people to not so much as toe the line of possibility doubt is a formidable opponent in defining the true artist/ mover and shakers from the perpetrators and pretenders. It is because of doubt we consistently re-evaluate who we are as people and as artist. From pain some of the most awe-inspiring works of imagination have been produced. Not the pain of the situation but rather the after effects that accompany it. When a lover breaks your heart you doubt you will ever love again much less trust anyone with your deepest darkest secrets. When you fail to get that perfect job you doubt you are smart enough. Artist take doubt to a self deprecating level; failing to sale a book or story means your nothing more than a hack, a failed painting is amateur.
The thorns of doubt run deep and dig hard, those of us who decide to engage it actively in conversation are the individuals who are able to coexist with doubt and use it as a motivator to believing in themselves and their abilities. It is through this coexistence or agreement that true artist are born.